To me, being successful means reaching my goals, being happy and living looking forward, not back. For me, sometimes success is getting out of bed and feeding myself, other times success is forcing myself to stop working and knocking myself out with sleeping pills so I actually get some rest. Success isn’t just measured by… Continue reading what does being successful mean to you?
So, long time no update. It’s bad, I know, but I’ve been ridiculously busy with work over the summer. I’m looking to commit more time now to blogging and youtube because I love it as a place to be honest and document my life. I was sectioned on the 13th of July. I absolutely hated… Continue reading What I’m doing now I’m out of hospital
I am running on air. There’s nothing keeping me going, yet somehow I keep moving and I don’t know how long this will last? I can’t stop thinking and it’s draining me, I want peace and quiet again and a break from thinking and arguing with my head. It’s probably one of the most difficult… Continue reading My brain is tired and overloaded
So I had an appointment on Tuesday at 4 with H, the nurse covering whilst P is away. It was tough. We completed an eating disorders questionnaire EDE-Q 6 which was hard as I had to give answers aloud to H as she was reading the questions to me. I tried to be honest, I… Continue reading Update, four CAMHS appointments later
So currently I’m sat in the car in the Tesco car park waiting for my mum to go and exchange a jar of biscoff that’s supposedly ‘contaminated’ and has been recalled. She’s in a strop with me because I want to go to Sainsbury’s and she doesn’t want to be near me because apparently my… Continue reading A message from the car
So the title of this should give you an idea of my night…. Basically it was a friends (i say friend but honestly I’ve met the guy like 5 times) 19th birthday party at one of the local pubs. I’d done a pros and cons list of going but ended up deciding to go because… Continue reading Update: last night I got totally pissed
So I feel like I should be completely honest on here and say I am ill. I am ill in the head and it’s not currently getting better. In fact it’s getting worse. The voice that tells me not to eat, to spit food out, to make a mess so it looks like I’ve eaten,… Continue reading I am getting sicker and I am sorry I can’t stop it