the sadness creeped up on me like a vine twisting around me taking hold and once it had my arms I was trapped No amount of struggle would free me But then came the people Those who cared And cut back the vines One by one Until I could move my arms once more And… Continue reading Vines
Life is a rollercoaster. It’s difficult at the best of times, but it is what it is at the end of the day. Some of us live life with an added challenge of the line between reality and imagination being so very blurred. I’ve only recently come to accept and acknowledge this aspect of my being,… Continue reading Living with hallucinations
To me, being successful means reaching my goals, being happy and living looking forward, not back. For me, sometimes success is getting out of bed and feeding myself, other times success is forcing myself to stop working and knocking myself out with sleeping pills so I actually get some rest. Success isn’t just measured by… Continue reading what does being successful mean to you?
So, long time no update. It’s bad, I know, but I’ve been ridiculously busy with work over the summer. I’m looking to commit more time now to blogging and youtube because I love it as a place to be honest and document my life. I was sectioned on the 13th of July. I absolutely hated… Continue reading What I’m doing now I’m out of hospital
It’s not padded cells, constant restrain and rapid tranquillisation, in fact its more mindfulness, colouring and crying. Everybody is ill, even the staff often have backgrounds of mental illness. You can’t judge people because most the time when ill, they aren’t truly themselves. You learn to be compassionate and understanding, and that a cuddle from… Continue reading What being inpatient is actually like
I’ve wanted to write an update for a while but writing down everything thats gone on recently just seemed too daunting but I’ve concluded I should at least try. Friday 24th I had an appointment with Helen and Paul, we did mindfulness and it totally fucked me up. It emptied my head of the thoughts… Continue reading The post I’ve been putting off
Just to note it down this is what happened on Friday: I had a cover teacher for psychology. I don’t like him. He told the class that as no one was covering us period 3 we could arrive for class in time for period 4. I didn’t feel right, my thoughts were so strong and… Continue reading Friday 17th March: crisis 2.0